The lilac tree in the parking lot is shaking away the bees, or maybe the wind is just dancing with it. Either way, it is captivating because it is doing exactly what it should be, blooming in all it's glory. There is nothing like watching creation do what it was meant to, watching it all in play. There are waves of sadness and joy, heartache and grace, that flood into you day after day, and push you further into the longevity of your life, that shape and mold you. At the very least I feel like I am being pulled down river in my life. As exciting as it seems, I am scared at times of what will be around the bend and I can't help but think about what seemed so fleeting upstream. However, this is life at it's most beautiful, rushing, flowing, carving, constant.
How to I, Korina Barigian, play into this wild river? How do I keep my head above the water? I let the water take me. I don't know where I fit in. All that I know is that I am to love my maker. It is so easy to do and so hard to do at the same time. Jesus why do you choose to love me? How can I love you better?
I came home yesterday to a completely clean home and a note that began "My beautiful bride" and I fell asleep to the swollen heart of my husband who was overwhelmed by the love of our Father. How did this happen? How did I become so blessed? I can't do much, but I certainly can love my Justin. He is the one thing I did right. Really, I didn't do anything, God just opened my eyes, allowed me to love and be loved. This is me doing what I was created to.
Justin was accepted into the Culinary Institute of America for the fall semester. It is some of the most exciting news we have received in a while. We are waiting on the financial aid and more information before we can start making some big decisions. We are waiting on the Lord about buying a car for Justin. A coworker of his is selling a Honda. Hopefully that works out. We are the brink of a lot of change. This is the kind of life I love to live. It is risky, it takes a lot of faithfulness, and now I have a husband to share it with, one step at a time.
Personal goals
Paint more
Practice guitar more
Photograph more
Love more
New Favorites
Justin's smile creeping out from under the covers that cover his mouth
Walks through the tree covered neighborhood we live in
Making breakfast with J in our pjs
Needing to use sunglasses again
The soft hum of songs from our wedding floating upstairs while I get ready for the day
My hand held every night as I fall asleep
For now I am off to float away :)
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