November 30, 2008

This Cannot Suffice

It's when you fall in slow motion
It forgives
It's in his embrace
It's unhindered laughter
It's when you cannot breathe and don't notice
It is honest
It encourages
It does not abandon
It's a blushed cheek
It's a whisper
It's a random smile on the drive home
It's the reminders throughout the day
It has a scent
It burns sometimes
It's in the kiss
It doesn't lose potency
It makes you brave
It has no bounds
It is kind
It is something familiar
It is something extraordinary
It's how we survive
It's worth dying for
It's how the snow falls silently
It's how your eyes shine and gaze back
It's why we live
It's why we die
It is.

....Thank you.

November 18, 2008

Peter Rollins On Irony

I had the privilege of having Pete as a speaker on my DTS, if you can get past the thick and quick Northern Irish accent, he is quite a brilliant fellow. Enjoy :) ....imagine trying to take notes to this guy!

November 17, 2008

"My apartment has many leather bound books, and smells of rich mohogany"


Is who I am becoming who I want to be?
After asking God for an awareness of who I am, how I react, how I progress, I have come to the humble conclusion, I am not all that fascinating. I lack color and vibrancy. I am not electric. When I pray for the Holy Spirit, I illuminate.
As human beings we are just that, beings. We are complex, yes, but we are not alive. You can see it in a persons eyes when their soul has withered. A person filled with the Spirit is intoxicating.
I want to beam. I desire so much to become the person I want to be, to just be there. I will never fully be like Christ, but in my pursuit, in the trials along the way, my prayer is that I will reflect Him. I want to grow in wisdom, be a person of character and integrity. I want to lead in my servanthood.
How I choose to react to situations alone, can tell so much about myself to strangers. I want strangers to see God in me. God is working on breaking habits, changing theories, transforming my way of thinking, and honestly, it's scary sometimes. It means admitting you're wrong.
I hear certain people speak of God, men who have studied the word, memorized it. When I listen to men who have developed their theories, who know philosophers and are Kierkegaard's themselves, I have to say, I am quite intimidated at their wisdom, or their ability to memorize things to at least sound intelligent. So much of me wants to be scholarly, to have attained a quiet sense of pride in my work. I want God to speak something profound through me. The difference between me now, and me a year ago though, is that then, I wanted God to speak through me so people would find me interesting, appealing. Now, I want it because God has placed a desire in me for others to know Him, and have relationship with Him, not a formula. I want Him to speak through me so that others can meet Him. Besides, I don't want to sound wise, I want to be wise.
God make me transparent
God make me quiet, radiant.

November 9, 2008

σπάσιμο

Hopefully after this blind dive
I will break into a million pieces
So you can put them back together
But this time with more color
A greater gift in the long run
Hopefully after this discipline
I will be what I am supposed to be
All for you and completely me