Lay It Down

There is plenty God has blessed me with, but my withholding from the Lord, will keep me from truly knowing Him. Tonight, I wanted to sleep, but God kept calling my name, kept beckoning me near Him. Being nearer to the light means being more exposed of all the crap I sink myself in. Lately I have gotten in the habit of being a big fat hypocrite and saying I am letting go of control, but even my prayers include "then I" or "so I". Tonight was a huge conviction of realizing, surrender is more than a prayer. I know this, and yet I avoided it, skirted around it, even preached it and didn't do it. I choose to lay it all down..will you join me?
I am surrendering it all
My future
My work
My father
My goals
My car
My finances
My ambitions
My guilt
My mom
Justin
I am laying them down before God, and I just want to encourage anyone who runs across this to take a minute to lay even what seems menial down before God. Make Him first, because His heart weeps for ours, for our hurts, our needs. He needs us as we need Him.
Today so many beautiful things happened. I can really appreciate what God is doing, by recognizing what He has done. Today God gave me many memories, one of which included a dream turned reality. I took it all in as I sat next to Justin at Sonic. There we were, an old fashioned kind of love, in the early summer, at the drive through, with our cold drinks, after a bike ride on the cruisers, listening to oldies, dreaming together. God gave us that moment. He orchestrates our dreams into reality everyday, if we can just recognize it. I will fail to recognize God's calling of my name if I do not let go of all this muck.

Here is a song that is stirring in me, if you want the mp3, I will gladly e-mail it to you :)

Jesus, All For Jesus

Jesus, all for Jesus,
All I am and have and ever hope to be.
Jesus, all for Jesus,
All I am and have and ever hope to be.

All of my ambitions, hopes and plans
I surrender these into Your hands.
All of my ambitions, hopes and plans
I surrender these into Your hands.

For it's only in Your will that I am free,
For it's only in Your will that I am free,
Jesus, all for Jesus,
All I am and have and ever hope to be.

Robin Mark, Revival In Belfast

Life is something wonderful. Praise our God who forgives, who heals, who redeems. In the grand scheme of things, what I choose to stress about will not matter. I want to be an encouragement, a joy, I want to radiate, not be slanderous. There a thousand plus things I am in the dark about, that are out of my control, but the Lord will be my constant.

Love without condition

Illuminate the dark