“To pay homage to beauty is to admire Nature; to admire Nature is to worship God”
I am not really sure if this post will have anything to do with daisies, but I saw them as I typed the title, and to be honest, it was the first word that came to mind. I have eight fiery gerbera daisies snuggled in a cobalt blue vase at the foot of my bed, They look like the sunrise. They have begun to bow their heads one by one, day by day, until now. Today they have all decided to take their end. They are all hunched over as if to say "Aannnd scene!" They had a brilliant performance they day they were brought into my work. They were carried in by a dashing gentleman to my surprise and I have woke to their smiling faces every morning since. I was thinking about how brilliant an invention flowers are, how electric they can be.
I don't know what happened the other day at work, but it was as if I had this rude awakening. I was trimming trough pictures and I looked up and said to myself "I have to go" It was really bizarre. I got such a feeling of anxiousness. It was almost as if I was saying to myself "Aannnd scene!" It was very matter of fact, very absolute. Now I didn't just up and walk out of the place, but I did not feel a hold to it any longer. I don't know if this was a release from the Lord, or what it was for that matter. But it was a release. Maybe I have just been working too much. But I would say I am ready to take on whatever the Lord brings. I am ready to do and go where he asks. Even if it means to go nowhere. I am learning to be content where I am, and realizing life is my ministry, wherever I am. I am learning to be brilliant, to be electric. And there is no way I get to bow my head, until I have fulfilled my purpose.
I have found something else in my life to be something of a brilliant sight. The dashing gentleman of whom I spoke of earlier was of course Justin. I am learning so much from him. I am learning to remember to recognize his love as a reflection of God's love. It can be easy to lose track of what something like what we have is. It is a gift from the Lord, and we need to acknowledge it as such. We are learning to give credit where credit is due. God has really used Justin to show me the kind of love from God I need. God is comforting, gentle, honest. I know God is going to continue to move in our relationship, and I am so blessed to know He is the center of what we are. God make us electric.
I have also noticed this week how splendid the Earth is. How overwhelming my thoughts become when I think of the balance of it all. The worship the winds create, the scent of those daisies are their song to the Lord. The poeple of this earth, when they love eachother, they are magnetic. How great our God must be to take in all that moves, all that breathes, all at once, and observe what He is has created. I wonder too, if he is still in awe at his creation, or if he weeps. I know there is good left in this world, there is beauty in simplicity. I know there are troubles, but but is there enough love, enough good still that He can hear the worship amidst the shadows? I think sometimes of the memory of my mom, and I feel that hurt, but it is amazing how much better I feel just after spending time by her tree next to the creek. I am convinced she could hear the Lord speak in the sound of the water running over the stones in that creek. I can too, if I can learn to be quiet enough. Thank you God for the extravagance of your creation, and how it heals.
Those daisies are sleeping, I should too. Thats all for now :)