Life In Fast Forward

Sooooo life is going by and I would like to take it in. Work keeps me busy and new things are coming quickly. I guess the only way for me to absorb it all is to write about it.

In the last month I have started working at the Cool Bean Cafe while still working at West Coast Imaging. It is great work and will help me get the upper hand in saving for a car...which yes, I still don't have. Summer is fast approaching and I will need a car for all that is to come!

If you could be praying for my friend Hannah who is having some medical testing done, but cant drive until she gets some more answers. So, prayer for her health and for some answers. Until she gets the clear from her doctors I will keep driving her to and from work and other places, so it's working out well in that aspect at least.

Some more prayer requests might be for my family, and for my dad, that God would bring healing for us, and draw us closer together. And for me, that God would give me the strength I need to keep on keeping on. I appreciate all your prayers already. I have come to value them like the air I breathe.

This summer has a lot coming, concerts, ball games, hiking, weddings galore, relay for life and some other new things....I'll let you know as they come :) But I am so grateful for the opportunities God has given me.

So I have some things I have been grinding away on. One being that I have thought a lot lately about how people change so much between 18 and 25. I sometimes wonder what has to happen during that time in someone's life to make them strive to be the person they will be for the rest of their life. But then I realized something. Certain people are more prone to personal development in their character than others, everyone matures as they age (we should hope to a certain degree) but I think some people develop more quickly than others, while others take a while. I don't want to be the person that takes forever to get there, if that makes any sense. I have a lot of things I want to do in my life as God wills it, but I don't want to watch it pass me by. What if I miss that window? Then I remember that is not my problem, my job is to listen, I will live a full life, I will get to do what makes me happy. I can see it starting to happen already.

It has been a while since I have been this busy and this happy at the same time. I have so much joy because I can think of my future now as something to look forward to. Even a few months ago it was hard to think a day ahead, but life is meant to be lived, not survived. I have come to really love nights at home with Amy and Shaug, and having the family over for dinner. I recently went on a hike with Hannah, Ben and Justin and then we all had dinner together, it was probably one of the nicest weekends in a long time. Oh also, Justin is home! So this marks the start of a great summer, and really great things to come. This is me living, which sometimes feels like fast forward. I just want to absorb it, appreciate it, and love it and the Lord to the fullest.

I do have my moments that go by in slow motion, they are few and bittersweet and keep me from going too fast. They are the moments I think of mom. The other day I heard this song, she used to say "Here is your song bean!" when it would come on and now I think of her every time I hear it. She loved it, and it is her to me. Love you mom, Happy Mothers Day soon :)